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Me and Pumpkin, February 2001 |
My name is Jackie and I'm 15 years old. I live in Roswell, Georgia, part of huge Metropolitan Atlanta. I've been sick for
over three and a half years now.
How it started
In early September of 2002, I became sick with Mononucleosis. School had only started 4 weeks before that. I was on Homebound
for a little while but the people at my school were upset, saying Mono didn't last that long, and I was fine. One lady was
convinced I was depressed and that I had school-phobia. As part of the ruling-out process you have to go through to
be diagnosed with CFS, I went to a psychiatrist. The psychiatrist said I was a "very well adjusted child". I was still sleeping
18-22 hours a day, and the rest of the time was spent in bed. The school system was still upset and stopped my Homebound.
They were going to have a social worker visit my house, because they thought I was being neglected! I was then taken out of
school. That just went too far. Shortly after that marked my sixth month of being sick. I met 7 of the 8 criteria to be diagnosed
with this illness, and since we ruled out all other possibilities, I was diagnosed with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.
My symptoms
I have some good days where I'm awake over 12 hours, but they're usually followed by days where I sleep over 18 hours,
and am sometimes too tired to even hold my head up or pick up a piece of bread. Even on my so-called "good days", or when
I do something like walk around a mall or roller blade, I don't feel great. I still feel bad but it's worth crashing the next
few days to get out and do something active. Even when my fatigue isn't overwhelming, I have bad headaches that never seem
to go away, with lots of pressure behind my eyes. I get cold extremities (blood stops flowing to my hands or feet), I have
un-refreshing sleep, trouble concentrating and focusing, trouble remembering things, muscle spasms, strep-like sore throat,
and I am usually physically tired but mentally alert. I also get irritable. Muscle spasms have been my worse symptom, besides
the fatigue, and the most painful.
Dr. Lapp
In early September of this year my parents took me to Charlotte, North Carolina, to see CFS and FMS specialist, Dr. Lapp. The week before I had blood work done and another electrocardiogram. The EKG (electrocardiogram) showed that I
have tackycardia, my heart rate was over 100. Dr. Lapp thought it was caused by the medicine I was taking to help me sleep
and get rid of my headaches, called Nortripyline, because before I started taking it my heart rate was normal. He gave me
some other medications to try and suggested other things that might help some of my symptoms. He was very easy to talk to!
He doesnt say hes curing anyone, because there is no cure, he just treats the symptoms. I also had a tilt table test. It was
interesting, I was afraid that I would get really sick. I started out laying on my back and after watching my blood pressure
and heart rhythm, they elevated me to an almost standing position and continued to monitor it. The whole thing only took about
30 minutes. Although I did show some sign of orthostatic intolerance, it showed that I dont have vertigo.
It has been very frustrating for me and my parents. Many people don't believe there's anything wrong with me, since all
my lab tests and x-rays are normal. It was wonderful to get confirmation of my diagnosis from Dr. Lapp, who has seen thousands
of CFS and FMS sufferers. I am glad that the CDC is finally starting to recognize CFS and FMS as real illnesses. If doctors
don't believe in them, ask them why the CDC says they're real. I think CFS has made me more understanding, caring, and thoughtful.
I think everything happens for a reason. Maybe you'll never figure it out, but it does. I would really like to help spread
awareness about CFS/FMS and all other invisible illnesses. I really hate to think that many, many people with these illnesses
have to go through all the stress and frustration when everyone thinks that they're just crazy or making it up for attention.
Some of my relatives have a hard time understanding CFS, even though I know they just want me to get better quickly. CFS and
FMS are real, whether people want to believe it or not. A lot of doctors might tell people it's all in their head, but we
are sick.
I need friends!
I would really love to hear from anyone out there with CFS/FMS, or any other invisible illnesses! I would love to hear
from people that don't have them, too! The Internet has been my gateway to the world. All my friends are online. I have my
own computer in my room, and since it doesn't require much physical activity, it has helped everything so much. If you're
stuck in a body that doesn't function really well, you might as well be happy! You can't try to fight something when you're
stressed or depressed. Even if I have a debilitating disease, that doesn't mean I'm just going to stop living. One of the
things I have really enjoyed is being a part of the Northwest Atlanta CFS/FMS Support Group. I love going. It's really great to have people that know what you're going through. If you're interested in talking
to me or if you have any questions or comments, please E-mail me! :)
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